Be Faithful

This goes without saying, but please pray for me. This journey will not be easy and I need all the support I can get. I have to break ungodly beliefs, and replace bad habits and thought patterns with new ones. I'm worth this. I was made for more! I pray for God's wisdom, revelation, and intervening power to be an integral part of my food choices from now on. I pray that I remember the truth of who I am in God. I pray that God continues to cover me with his mercy and grace. I am so thankful that He is faithful to His children. "God, I recognize I am made for more than the vicious cycle of being ruled by food. I need to eat to live, not live to eat. So I keep asking for Your wisdom to know what to eat and in Your indwelling power to walk away from things that are not beneficial for me." (Made to Crave, pg 52)

Last week I had quite the challenging week. God has been bringing to my attention moreso than ever that I have been made to crave Him. There is nothing that can fill our deep hearts except His love; and there is nowhere we can go that will be as peaceful as His presence. I didn't want to admit it but food is a problem area in my life - and I'm not talking just physically. It affects me emotionally, and it affects me spiritually. I let it consume my thoughts and I plan my life around it. What can I eat next? When is my next meal? Where is my next meal? How long has it been since I last ate?  What do I feel like eating? Feelings can be so deceiving. Just like our minds, the enemy tries to play with our hearts. What are feelings, really? They are just as much, if not more, manipulated by the enemy than the mind is. I saw my psychotherapist on Thursday for the first time since mid-March. We were going over what I had  (and hadn't) done since the last time I saw her. I had

‎"I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe" (Ephesians 1:17-19)

Lord, help me to be the kind of person who allows people to change. Help me to pray for people instead of judging them. I want to release people into Your hands and not bring condemnation back on myself by holding them to me with my unforgiveness. Enable me to forgive people as often as it takes, just as You have said to do in Your word. If he sins against you seven times in a day, and seven times in a day he returns to you, saying, "I repent," you shall forgive him.  - Luke 17:4