Be Faithful

I have been seeking acceptance from the opposite sex for as long as I can remember having raging hormones (so lets say 12 or 13?). I felt as though the only way I could prove to others that I was worth loving was if I was in a relationship. (OBVIOUSLY I have something to offer otherwise I wouldn't have a boyfriend, right?! hah ya ok then) I've had more boyfriends than I can count on my hands and feet, and many of them I compromised my values for; offering myself sexually to get that sense of belonging and security that I had never really had because of things that happened in my childhood. I traded sex-related things for snuggles, because I felt like that was the only way I could convince others to love me, even if it was just for a night... what lies! Christmases have often been hard for me because my family is so dysfunctional, and this past Christmas has been no exception. It was a little different this time though because I was born again in 2010 at a conference that my [n