Some history
I was born into a Lutheran church where it's all about traditions and rituals and begging God for mercy. I had never had a positive perception of God and the enemy filled me with self loathing, shame and misery. He took advantage of my adolescent years and convinced me that God was the problem not the solution. I've spent the better part of the last 10 years being lost and hopeless like those people who invest all their hearts into others who will inevitably let them down because that's what people do.. we are not strong enough to support ourselves in times of need let alone others. Only with God's help. Point is, it wasn't until a couple years ago that I started letting down my defenses and realizing that no matter what I did I wasn't happy. I was sleeping around trying to find someone who would love me. Someone who would validate my existence and tell me I'm beautiful. There was a huge hole in my heart and I couldn't get any peace. I developed a soci...